Live With No Regrets ♥

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♥ Live With No Regrets .

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ANGELA LAI
the happy girl who lives with no regrets.

She likes to busk in the limelight,
and enjoys capturing attention.
I do not live in the shadow of others
and i HATE to be forgotten.

I do what i say,
And, i say what i feel.

You think you know me?
Think TWICE before u judge.

Here, i do my constant ranting.
Here, i update my camwhoring photos.
Everything here are purely MY opinions,
and u don't have to agree with me.
If my narcissism scares u,
leave me alone.

i've totally lost my blogging spirit since i've decided to start to work hard.
which is a rather sad thing i suppose. T_T

now my brain is preoccupied with studies, results and nothing else.
ok. maybe my dearest as well.

everyday..
on the train i used to be observing the people around me,
how people behave and think about why,
look at their outfits and wonder who they are,
how are their lives different from mine..

today..
on the train my brain is so drained tt it refuses to work,
its flooded with depressing thoughts about results,
or motivating plans on how to improve my results,
if not maybe sometimes happy about doing my work...

S.T.U.D.I.E.S
R.E.S.U.L.T.S

im going crazy..
few more months..

now.. everyday..
in the morning, i'd either be reading the newspaper,
hoping tt it'd improve my GP [studies again]
or i'd be sleeping like a pig, through the entire train ride,
28minutes..
oblivious of the surroundings, even my ear shut off..
in the afternoon/evening, on my train ride home,
i'd be thinking about my day..
those tutorial lessons, the time practices,
those lectures, how much i cant catch up.
be reminded of how hopeless i am..
until it'd take another 300 muscles on my face to force a smile.
feeling so dead, so sad and everything..

its sad to see how much studies is eating into my life,
refusing me of my right to be care-free and happy..

even now, tt im blogging,
im thinking.

of:

-am i supposed to be blogging now? [time wasted?]
-i have so much stuffs to be done..
-can i complete my physics paper 3 later?
[ my most hopeless subject ]

every second of my life now is spent thinking about how
HOW can i buck up and pull myself out of this deep well,
this losing race tt im running now,
this pathetic state tt im in..

for those who are having an easy time,
stop sneering at me.
stop asking me to spend more time of studies.
stop giving me the "u're hopeless" look.

cus u dont know how I FEEL.
im trying. shut up if u dont believe.
im struggling. help me if u are willing to.

OK. i shall stop here. (:
i look forward to FRIDAY and SATURDAY.
a break from studies.
and yes obviously, SUNDAY and MONDAY.
for serious catching up.

enough of the depressing entry. =]]
hehes.
i shall end of with some random HAPPY pictures..

Blogged By The Girl Who Is Easily Contented.

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